1 00:01:12,100 --> 00:01:15,729 We never speak about what happened in Belfast. 2 00:01:29,242 --> 00:01:33,204 Perhaps because beforehand we were so full of hope. 3 00:01:33,246 --> 00:01:35,749 - Hi, Mrs. Gilmore. - Hello. 4 00:01:52,766 --> 00:01:56,352 But a single day can change the course of any life. 5 00:02:18,333 --> 00:02:21,419 Leaving Ireland, leaving our home... 6 00:02:24,297 --> 00:02:26,424 ...alone, 7 00:02:26,466 --> 00:02:29,552 unmoored, adrift. 8 00:02:35,225 --> 00:02:38,019 - And now... - Five? 9 00:02:38,061 --> 00:02:42,774 ...we seem to have become exiles from each other 10 00:02:42,816 --> 00:02:45,401 and the promises we made. 11 00:02:47,654 --> 00:02:49,906 The promise I made. 12 00:02:50,824 --> 00:02:53,159 ♪ Oh-oh, yes ♪ 13 00:02:53,201 --> 00:02:56,371 ♪ I'm the great pretender ♪ 14 00:02:58,122 --> 00:03:03,169 ♪ Pretending that I'm doing well ♪ 15 00:03:04,379 --> 00:03:07,382 ♪ My need is such ♪ 16 00:03:07,423 --> 00:03:10,343 ♪ I pretend too much ♪ 17 00:03:10,385 --> 00:03:12,136 ♪ I'm lonely ♪ 18 00:03:12,178 --> 00:03:16,558 ♪ But no one can tell... ♪ 19 00:03:16,599 --> 00:03:18,351 Bye, then. 20 00:03:19,352 --> 00:03:21,104 Bye, darling. 21 00:03:22,564 --> 00:03:25,316 Sure I can't tempt you? 22 00:03:25,358 --> 00:03:27,151 What's that? 23 00:03:29,529 --> 00:03:32,490 ♪ I played the game ♪ 24 00:03:32,532 --> 00:03:34,826 ♪ But to my real shame ♪ 25 00:03:34,868 --> 00:03:36,619 ♪ You've left me ♪ 26 00:03:36,661 --> 00:03:38,621 ♪ To grieve... ♪ 27 00:03:46,421 --> 00:03:49,007 ♪ Snow had fallen ♪ 28 00:03:49,048 --> 00:03:51,801 ♪ Snow on snow ♪ 29 00:03:51,843 --> 00:03:55,680 ♪ Snow on snow... ♪ 30 00:03:55,722 --> 00:03:58,182 The body of Christ. 31 00:03:58,224 --> 00:03:59,684 -James... -Amen. 32 00:03:59,726 --> 00:04:02,687 ...chapter four, verse 14 tells us 33 00:04:02,729 --> 00:04:07,442 you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. 34 00:04:09,569 --> 00:04:11,195 What is your life? 35 00:04:11,237 --> 00:04:16,034 You are a mist that appears for a little while 36 00:04:16,075 --> 00:04:18,036 and then vanishes. 37 00:04:18,077 --> 00:04:21,873 On this night of the year more than any other, 38 00:04:21,915 --> 00:04:25,043 we are reminded to cherish those... 39 00:04:25,084 --> 00:04:27,045 I just wanted to say, have a lovely Christmas. 40 00:04:27,086 --> 00:04:29,672 -Oh, happy Christmas, dear. -Yeah, so nice to see you. 41 00:04:29,714 --> 00:04:31,174 -Yeah. -See you soon. 42 00:04:31,215 --> 00:04:32,550 Okay. 43 00:04:33,927 --> 00:04:35,720 Good night. Happy Christmas to you. 44 00:04:35,762 --> 00:04:37,013 -Merry Christmas. -Good night. 45 00:04:37,055 --> 00:04:39,098 Oh, sorry. 46 00:04:55,782 --> 00:04:57,075 I'm back. 47 00:04:57,116 --> 00:04:59,410 It's freezing out there. 48 00:08:10,977 --> 00:08:13,104 It's ringing. 49 00:08:13,146 --> 00:08:15,106 It's the answer machine. 50 00:08:15,148 --> 00:08:16,774 - Leave a message. - Aye. 51 00:08:19,485 --> 00:08:22,655 Hi, Michael. It's Mum and Dad here. 52 00:08:22,697 --> 00:08:24,115 Not sure what time it is 53 00:08:24,157 --> 00:08:25,491 - where you are. - Merry Christmas, son. 54 00:08:25,533 --> 00:08:27,535 Give Toby a kiss from Granddad. 55 00:08:29,162 --> 00:08:32,081 Just calling to see how you and the family are settling in. 56 00:08:32,123 --> 00:08:34,458 You know, first Christmas in your new abode. 57 00:08:34,500 --> 00:08:38,671 All right, well, uh, we're around, so... 58 00:08:40,006 --> 00:08:41,507 Lots of love. 59 00:08:59,108 --> 00:09:00,860 What's this? 60 00:09:00,902 --> 00:09:02,695 Surprise. 61 00:09:04,447 --> 00:09:06,115 Don't tell me. Don't tell me. 62 00:09:07,700 --> 00:09:08,826 Shoes. 63 00:09:12,330 --> 00:09:15,249 It's a little something-- for both of us. 64 00:09:20,213 --> 00:09:22,340 Amsterdam? 65 00:09:22,381 --> 00:09:25,384 I thought it was time for an adventure. 66 00:09:27,011 --> 00:09:30,306 That's... fantastic. 67 00:09:32,308 --> 00:09:34,685 - Flights, hotel? - Mm. 68 00:09:34,727 --> 00:09:38,147 You've outdone yourself, Mrs. Gilmore. 69 00:09:38,189 --> 00:09:40,149 Start the New Year off with a bang. 70 00:09:40,191 --> 00:09:41,776 You'd better believe it. 71 00:09:44,028 --> 00:09:46,572 You and me. 72 00:09:46,614 --> 00:09:47,990 Me and you. 73 00:09:54,288 --> 00:09:56,207 Do you have the passports, or do I? 74 00:09:56,249 --> 00:09:58,209 Passports, eye drops, phone charger. 75 00:09:58,251 --> 00:09:59,502 All in your shoulder bag. 76 00:09:59,543 --> 00:10:01,254 What about my special shampoo? 77 00:10:01,295 --> 00:10:03,422 That, too. 78 00:10:03,464 --> 00:10:06,634 Uh, what's the limit again? 79 00:10:08,427 --> 00:10:10,554 That's six minutes. 80 00:10:10,596 --> 00:10:12,556 Someone whose opinion I trust 81 00:10:12,598 --> 00:10:15,810 once said I was flamboyant wearing this. 82 00:10:15,851 --> 00:10:19,397 I was never entirely sure whether that was a good thing 83 00:10:19,438 --> 00:10:21,565 or a bad thing. 84 00:10:21,607 --> 00:10:23,401 Oh, no, the knot's all wrong. 85 00:10:23,442 --> 00:10:25,444 -What? -Here. 86 00:10:28,114 --> 00:10:29,657 Right. 87 00:10:32,618 --> 00:10:34,203 Don't choke me. 88 00:10:34,245 --> 00:10:36,372 It's tempting. 89 00:10:37,415 --> 00:10:39,083 -All right. -There. 90 00:10:39,125 --> 00:10:41,252 -That's better. -Yeah. That's good. 91 00:10:41,294 --> 00:10:43,713 -Okay. I'll... -Right. 92 00:10:43,754 --> 00:10:46,132 Oh, that's seven minutes. I'm calling them. 93 00:10:47,425 --> 00:10:49,051 Uh, there's the taxi now. 94 00:10:49,093 --> 00:10:50,928 Oh! 95 00:10:50,970 --> 00:10:52,972 Right. Uh... 96 00:10:53,014 --> 00:10:55,558 -Uh, case. -Right. 97 00:10:55,599 --> 00:10:57,935 -Is that everything? -Uh, yeah. Think so. 98 00:10:57,977 --> 00:10:59,937 Sure? 99 00:11:26,339 --> 00:11:28,090 Well, some people have more luggage than sense. 100 00:11:28,132 --> 00:11:29,508 There it is. 101 00:11:31,510 --> 00:11:34,055 Where did you say the shampoo was again? 102 00:11:41,187 --> 00:11:43,647 Sweet before takeoff, modom? 103 00:11:49,111 --> 00:11:50,488 For everyone's comfort and safety, 104 00:11:50,529 --> 00:11:52,698 would you please place all hand baggage 105 00:11:52,740 --> 00:11:54,492 under the seats in front of you 106 00:11:54,533 --> 00:11:57,536 or in the overhead lockers, providing they will close. 107 00:11:59,330 --> 00:12:01,165 Oh. Nearly forgot. 108 00:12:01,207 --> 00:12:02,666 What? 109 00:12:04,251 --> 00:12:06,879 -Stop you from being sick. -How? 110 00:12:08,047 --> 00:12:10,257 It's a wristband. 111 00:12:10,299 --> 00:12:13,135 Someone at church recommended them. 112 00:12:14,762 --> 00:12:17,431 Presses on your pulse point here. 113 00:12:17,473 --> 00:12:19,683 I'd be better off saying a prayer. 114 00:12:19,725 --> 00:12:22,520 Please, God, don't make me vomit on this flight. 115 00:12:54,009 --> 00:12:55,594 - All right? - Yeah. 116 00:12:55,636 --> 00:12:57,596 Looks nice. 117 00:13:02,893 --> 00:13:04,395 - Hello. - Hello. 118 00:13:04,437 --> 00:13:05,729 - Hello. - How are you? 119 00:13:05,771 --> 00:13:07,231 Welcome to Amsterdam. 120 00:13:07,273 --> 00:13:08,566 Thank you. 121 00:13:08,607 --> 00:13:10,818 Oh. 122 00:13:18,200 --> 00:13:19,577 Here we are. 123 00:13:26,125 --> 00:13:28,878 Huh. Hard to tell. 124 00:13:31,172 --> 00:13:32,965 Let's try this way. 125 00:13:34,967 --> 00:13:36,719 Yeah, this is it. 126 00:13:46,479 --> 00:13:48,939 Try the other one. 127 00:13:50,483 --> 00:13:51,692 Oh. 128 00:13:51,734 --> 00:13:53,861 There you go. We're in. 129 00:13:54,653 --> 00:13:56,822 Let there be... 130 00:13:57,823 --> 00:13:59,617 ...light. 131 00:13:59,658 --> 00:14:02,161 Oh, very nice. 132 00:14:02,203 --> 00:14:03,496 Oh. 133 00:14:03,537 --> 00:14:06,123 It's bigger than I thought. 134 00:14:06,165 --> 00:14:07,333 It's lovely. 135 00:14:07,374 --> 00:14:09,043 Yeah. 136 00:14:11,754 --> 00:14:14,882 Oh, would you look at that gray sky? 137 00:14:20,513 --> 00:14:22,431 Maybe next time, you book somewhere 138 00:14:22,473 --> 00:14:24,350 in one of the sunnier hemispheres? 139 00:14:27,728 --> 00:14:29,855 Time to test the bed. 140 00:14:34,235 --> 00:14:36,195 How is it? 141 00:14:36,237 --> 00:14:37,988 Hard as a brick runway. 142 00:14:39,490 --> 00:14:41,450 Perfect. 143 00:14:41,492 --> 00:14:43,536 In fact, uh... 144 00:14:43,577 --> 00:14:45,621 I might have a wee snooze. 145 00:14:45,663 --> 00:14:47,331 Oh, it's the middle of the afternoon. 146 00:14:47,373 --> 00:14:48,874 So? 147 00:14:48,916 --> 00:14:50,918 So, you never take a nap in the middle of the afternoon. 148 00:14:50,960 --> 00:14:53,170 Yeah, but we're on holiday. It's always different. 149 00:14:53,212 --> 00:14:56,507 -You don't mind, do you? -Oh, if you insist. 150 00:14:56,549 --> 00:14:59,176 Half an hour. No more. 151 00:14:59,218 --> 00:15:00,511 Chocolate, sir? 152 00:15:00,553 --> 00:15:01,720 Oh, thank you, modom. 153 00:15:11,355 --> 00:15:13,065 Oh, lovely. 154 00:15:14,191 --> 00:15:16,026 This is the life. 155 00:15:28,455 --> 00:15:30,749 Ooh. 156 00:15:31,917 --> 00:15:33,544 -Ah. Hello. -Hello. 157 00:15:33,586 --> 00:15:35,004 Good evening. 158 00:15:35,045 --> 00:15:37,464 Um, could you recommend somewhere not too pricey 159 00:15:37,506 --> 00:15:40,551 -for a drink this evening? -You are in the right place. 160 00:15:40,593 --> 00:15:42,511 Amsterdam is so full of options. 161 00:15:42,553 --> 00:15:43,887 -Right. -Oh. 162 00:15:53,439 --> 00:15:56,859 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 163 00:15:56,900 --> 00:15:59,903 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow... ♪ 164 00:15:59,945 --> 00:16:03,616 Trust you to find the only Irish pub in Amsterdam. 165 00:16:04,617 --> 00:16:07,411 God, a well-built ant could piss more. 166 00:16:07,453 --> 00:16:09,330 And that's a double. 167 00:16:09,371 --> 00:16:10,539 You're learning. 168 00:16:10,581 --> 00:16:12,833 Killing you with kindness. 169 00:16:15,544 --> 00:16:17,129 You and me. 170 00:16:18,172 --> 00:16:19,798 Me and you. 171 00:16:19,840 --> 00:16:22,760 ♪ This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom... ♪ 172 00:16:22,801 --> 00:16:26,138 I suppose we're lucky to have each other to ignore. 173 00:16:27,473 --> 00:16:30,976 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 174 00:16:31,018 --> 00:16:34,355 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪ 175 00:16:34,396 --> 00:16:37,941 ♪ And we poor sailors are skipping at the top... ♪ 176 00:16:37,983 --> 00:16:41,654 The arrogance of amplification in a space this size. 177 00:16:41,695 --> 00:16:43,155 You used to like this one. 178 00:16:43,197 --> 00:16:45,949 ♪ While the landlubbers lie down below ♪ 179 00:16:45,991 --> 00:16:49,370 ♪ This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom ♪ 180 00:16:49,411 --> 00:16:51,872 ♪ We will sink to the bottom of the sea ♪ 181 00:16:51,914 --> 00:16:53,582 ♪ For me ♪ 182 00:16:53,624 --> 00:16:57,461 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 183 00:16:57,503 --> 00:17:00,881 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪ 184 00:17:00,923 --> 00:17:03,384 ♪ And we poor sailors... ♪ 185 00:17:06,095 --> 00:17:09,973 You know, it's Ireland's greatest export: 186 00:17:10,015 --> 00:17:13,852 a bullshit lesson on how to enjoy yourself. 187 00:17:14,853 --> 00:17:17,481 -That and the car bomb. -Oh, would you... 188 00:17:17,523 --> 00:17:19,650 Would you come away from the edge? 189 00:17:19,692 --> 00:17:22,903 -Gives me the weirdest feeling. -What does? 190 00:17:28,659 --> 00:17:30,202 Come on. 191 00:17:31,829 --> 00:17:34,998 - All right. - All right. Hold my arm. 192 00:17:35,040 --> 00:17:37,084 You're a liability, you are. 193 00:19:31,281 --> 00:19:33,367 Unlike the Provisional IRA, 194 00:19:33,408 --> 00:19:36,286 the new IRA possesses limited weaponry. 195 00:19:36,328 --> 00:19:39,790 It's enough to mount a campaign but not on the same scale 196 00:19:39,832 --> 00:19:42,751 as the paramilitary groups of the past. 197 00:19:42,793 --> 00:19:45,128 Following its ceasefire in 1994, 198 00:19:45,170 --> 00:19:47,339 the Provisional IRA decommissioned 199 00:19:47,381 --> 00:19:50,342 the bulk of its arsenal, much of it supplied by Libya... 200 00:19:50,384 --> 00:19:52,469 On and on it goes. 201 00:19:53,554 --> 00:19:54,930 Aye. 202 00:19:54,972 --> 00:19:57,474 Are you, uh, done in there? 203 00:19:57,516 --> 00:19:58,892 Aye. 204 00:19:58,934 --> 00:20:00,561 Forensic examination has revealed 205 00:20:00,602 --> 00:20:03,272 that some of the weapons seized from dissident Republicans 206 00:20:03,313 --> 00:20:05,524 trace back to the original stockpiles 207 00:20:05,566 --> 00:20:07,276 of the Provisional IRA. 208 00:20:07,317 --> 00:20:11,071 There are some figures, some senior leadership figures, 209 00:20:11,113 --> 00:20:13,532 who never bought into the peace process... 210 00:20:34,511 --> 00:20:36,555 S-Stella. 211 00:20:36,597 --> 00:20:38,181 Have you seen my statins? 212 00:20:43,896 --> 00:20:45,564 Stella. 213 00:20:45,606 --> 00:20:47,900 My statins-- have you seen them? 214 00:20:59,578 --> 00:21:02,539 Have you looked in the wash bag? 215 00:21:02,581 --> 00:21:04,917 Uh... 216 00:21:12,132 --> 00:21:14,259 Mm. There. 217 00:21:15,636 --> 00:21:17,262 Sorry. 218 00:21:48,460 --> 00:21:49,962 It's a religious community. 219 00:21:50,003 --> 00:21:51,338 A convent? 220 00:21:51,380 --> 00:21:53,632 Uh, no, uh, more like a sanctuary. 221 00:21:54,633 --> 00:21:55,759 I think it's that way. 222 00:21:55,801 --> 00:21:57,511 You think or you know? 223 00:21:57,552 --> 00:21:59,638 'Cause having a map and knowing the way are not the same thing. 224 00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:01,306 Oh, shush. 225 00:22:04,601 --> 00:22:06,144 Here. 226 00:22:14,444 --> 00:22:16,446 Behold. 227 00:22:16,488 --> 00:22:18,323 The Begijnhof. 228 00:22:19,992 --> 00:22:21,743 -In there? -Mm. 229 00:22:24,162 --> 00:22:27,249 Lead on. 230 00:22:45,684 --> 00:22:47,644 It's home to some of the oldest 231 00:22:47,686 --> 00:22:49,229 buildings in the city. 232 00:22:49,271 --> 00:22:51,648 For women who wanted to live alone. 233 00:22:51,690 --> 00:22:56,153 A sisterhood of unmarried Catholic women. 234 00:22:57,362 --> 00:23:01,575 In the 1600s, Catholic worship was... 235 00:23:01,616 --> 00:23:05,954 was banned by the Protestant powers that be. 236 00:23:05,996 --> 00:23:08,498 Why are we whispering? 237 00:23:12,878 --> 00:23:15,255 Public mass wasn't allowed, 238 00:23:15,297 --> 00:23:20,343 so they used to do it in their own homes, you know? 239 00:23:20,385 --> 00:23:21,678 In secret. 240 00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:24,139 Yeah, which is why it doesn't look like a church 241 00:23:24,181 --> 00:23:26,099 -from the outside. -It's camouflaged. 242 00:23:26,141 --> 00:23:29,853 They lived like nuns but... 243 00:23:29,895 --> 00:23:34,524 without all the... all the vows and what have you. 244 00:23:38,653 --> 00:23:40,197 Hmm. 245 00:23:44,743 --> 00:23:47,746 Reminds me of van Gogh's prison yard. 246 00:23:47,788 --> 00:23:49,623 Nonsense. 247 00:23:50,749 --> 00:23:51,875 Excuse me. 248 00:23:51,917 --> 00:23:54,419 Uh, is-is the church open yet? 249 00:23:54,461 --> 00:23:57,130 Which church were you hoping to see? 250 00:23:57,172 --> 00:23:58,799 Oh, you're Irish. 251 00:23:58,840 --> 00:24:00,050 She's Irish. 252 00:24:00,092 --> 00:24:01,593 Guilty as charged. 253 00:24:01,635 --> 00:24:05,055 Waterford originally, but I've lived all over, really. 254 00:24:05,097 --> 00:24:06,306 County Derry. 255 00:24:06,348 --> 00:24:08,225 From a townland nobody's heard of 256 00:24:08,266 --> 00:24:10,227 in a place nobody knows. 257 00:24:10,268 --> 00:24:11,436 Do you live here? 258 00:24:11,478 --> 00:24:14,523 Oh, yes, I'm one of the lucky ones. 259 00:24:14,564 --> 00:24:16,608 And what brings you to Amsterdam? 260 00:24:18,610 --> 00:24:20,612 Well, um... 261 00:24:20,654 --> 00:24:23,281 we're not getting any younger, so... 262 00:24:25,992 --> 00:24:27,410 And tell me again, 263 00:24:27,452 --> 00:24:29,162 which of the churches was it you wanted to see? 264 00:24:29,204 --> 00:24:30,664 The Catholic one. 265 00:24:30,705 --> 00:24:31,915 Oh. 266 00:24:31,957 --> 00:24:33,166 It's just through here. 267 00:24:33,208 --> 00:24:35,627 Oh, thank you. 268 00:24:35,669 --> 00:24:37,170 -Okay. -Gerry. 269 00:26:04,216 --> 00:26:07,761 "The miracle of Amsterdam." 270 00:26:10,555 --> 00:26:12,891 Ye olde graphic novel. 271 00:26:26,738 --> 00:26:32,244 "In the year 1345 in the city of Amsterdam, 272 00:26:32,285 --> 00:26:36,748 a man lay dying in a house on Kalverstraat." 273 00:26:36,790 --> 00:26:38,750 Solid opening gambit. 274 00:26:39,751 --> 00:26:42,754 "A priest came and gave the man communion. 275 00:26:43,713 --> 00:26:48,218 "After he had gone, the sick man felt so unwell 276 00:26:48,260 --> 00:26:50,637 that he vomited up the sacred host..." 277 00:26:50,679 --> 00:26:53,431 -Lovely. -"...into a bowl." 278 00:26:54,975 --> 00:26:57,602 That's really put me in the mood for lunch. 279 00:26:58,645 --> 00:27:01,898 "The man died the next morning, and his maid, 280 00:27:01,940 --> 00:27:07,570 "she threw the contents of the bowl into the fire. 281 00:27:07,612 --> 00:27:09,239 "However, the following day, 282 00:27:09,281 --> 00:27:13,702 "when the maid checked the fireplace... 283 00:27:15,495 --> 00:27:20,542 "...there it was, the host... 284 00:27:22,627 --> 00:27:26,256 ...untouched by the flames." 285 00:27:32,637 --> 00:27:38,018 The priest had this place built to commemorate the miracle. 286 00:27:40,395 --> 00:27:41,896 Which was? 287 00:27:45,442 --> 00:27:47,986 The indestructible host. 288 00:27:48,028 --> 00:27:50,447 Well, it seems a bit... 289 00:27:50,488 --> 00:27:54,075 minor league as miracles go. 290 00:27:54,117 --> 00:27:56,411 You know, a fireproof wafer. 291 00:27:56,453 --> 00:27:58,204 You know as well as I do, Gerry, 292 00:27:58,246 --> 00:27:59,914 that miracles come in all shapes and sizes. 293 00:27:59,956 --> 00:28:04,336 Stella, what happened to you was not miraculous. 294 00:28:04,377 --> 00:28:07,881 Right, it was perfectly within the bounds of possibilit... 295 00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:44,834 Every time I open my glasses case nowadays, 296 00:28:44,876 --> 00:28:47,962 I'm pleasantly surprised to find my glasses. 297 00:28:49,089 --> 00:28:50,924 Now, that's a miracle. 298 00:29:01,976 --> 00:29:04,521 The model married couple. 299 00:29:04,562 --> 00:29:07,023 I think you can see how much he cherishes her. 300 00:29:15,240 --> 00:29:18,743 Why is she protecting her stomach? 301 00:29:44,644 --> 00:29:46,688 Everything all right? 302 00:29:46,729 --> 00:29:48,690 Oh, my feet are throbbing. 303 00:29:48,731 --> 00:29:50,400 I've been on my pegs all morning. 304 00:29:50,442 --> 00:29:52,610 Ah. You're not going to chicken out, are you? 305 00:29:52,652 --> 00:29:54,737 No, no. It's a pit stop. 306 00:29:56,197 --> 00:29:57,740 Okay. 307 00:29:57,782 --> 00:30:01,411 Look, I can't not see The Night Watch, so... 308 00:30:01,453 --> 00:30:03,329 -No. -So, um, why don't we meet 309 00:30:03,371 --> 00:30:06,541 in the café in, uh... 310 00:30:06,583 --> 00:30:09,002 -30 minutes for a bit of lunch? -Sure. 311 00:30:09,043 --> 00:30:10,420 Okay? 312 00:30:10,462 --> 00:30:12,422 All right. 313 00:30:12,464 --> 00:30:14,090 See ya. 314 00:30:41,618 --> 00:30:44,954 That cold, it would cut right through you. 315 00:31:04,974 --> 00:31:07,310 Ah, God. 316 00:31:07,352 --> 00:31:09,646 Oh. 317 00:31:09,687 --> 00:31:11,814 Oh, yeah. 318 00:31:20,114 --> 00:31:23,493 Would-would you look what these socks have done to me. 319 00:31:23,535 --> 00:31:25,161 Egg timer. 320 00:31:25,203 --> 00:31:26,663 Look. Feel it. 321 00:31:26,704 --> 00:31:28,915 Uh, no, I'm happy to forgo that at the moment. 322 00:31:30,959 --> 00:31:33,169 Oh, God. 323 00:31:35,547 --> 00:31:37,090 Stop it. 324 00:31:37,131 --> 00:31:40,510 The only thing that feels better than this is... 325 00:31:40,552 --> 00:31:43,012 You'll make it worse. 326 00:31:43,054 --> 00:31:48,184 Oh, I know you shouldn't, but when you give in, Stella... 327 00:31:48,226 --> 00:31:50,436 -when you give in... -You'll draw blood. 328 00:31:54,232 --> 00:31:56,317 Oh, that's better. 329 00:32:07,537 --> 00:32:08,913 What? 330 00:33:17,982 --> 00:33:19,484 Help us with this, will you? 331 00:33:31,496 --> 00:33:33,206 Gerry? 332 00:33:34,582 --> 00:33:36,167 Hmm? 333 00:33:43,966 --> 00:33:47,345 Do you ever think about where you'd like to be buried? 334 00:33:49,555 --> 00:33:52,350 Other than with you, you mean? 335 00:33:54,894 --> 00:33:58,022 At home or in Scotland, I mean. 336 00:34:00,525 --> 00:34:02,819 Is Scotland not home? 337 00:34:10,702 --> 00:34:14,455 What happens when all of this stops? 338 00:34:14,497 --> 00:34:17,250 Then... 339 00:34:17,291 --> 00:34:19,210 there'll be no more. 340 00:34:25,425 --> 00:34:28,052 And what'll be the point then? 341 00:35:38,956 --> 00:35:41,918 Fuck! Jesus! 342 00:35:41,959 --> 00:35:44,879 - Stella! - Yes, I'm coming, Gerry. 343 00:35:44,921 --> 00:35:46,589 -I slipped. -Oh, come on. 344 00:35:46,631 --> 00:35:48,257 Come on. 345 00:35:48,299 --> 00:35:50,593 It's all right. It's all right. 346 00:35:50,635 --> 00:35:52,261 God... 347 00:35:52,303 --> 00:35:54,263 -Oh, God. -It's no laughing matter. 348 00:35:54,305 --> 00:35:55,932 All right. 349 00:35:55,973 --> 00:35:57,975 Wait a minute. Let's get this on you. 350 00:35:58,017 --> 00:35:59,602 It's all right. It's all right. 351 00:36:02,730 --> 00:36:04,816 Get your legs over. 352 00:36:06,943 --> 00:36:08,611 All right, come on. One at a time. 353 00:36:10,154 --> 00:36:11,531 I could've been a goner. 354 00:36:11,572 --> 00:36:14,492 Oh, shh. You're all right. 355 00:36:14,534 --> 00:36:17,495 There. Oh. 356 00:36:17,537 --> 00:36:19,455 -There's no bath mat. -Oh. 357 00:36:21,290 --> 00:36:23,292 Every bath should have a rubber mat. 358 00:36:23,334 --> 00:36:24,710 I know. I know. 359 00:36:24,752 --> 00:36:26,629 Oh. Oh, you're all right. 360 00:36:26,671 --> 00:36:29,090 Come on, now. Steady. Steady. 361 00:36:29,131 --> 00:36:31,217 Oh, you're shaking. 362 00:36:31,259 --> 00:36:34,804 Good man. Good man. 363 00:36:34,846 --> 00:36:36,138 Sorry. 364 00:36:36,180 --> 00:36:38,099 I didn't mean to laugh. 365 00:36:56,367 --> 00:36:58,244 You all right? 366 00:36:58,286 --> 00:36:59,954 Yeah, yeah. 367 00:37:09,088 --> 00:37:10,464 Oh, just pour away. 368 00:37:10,506 --> 00:37:13,009 - Sure? - I'm sure it's fine. 369 00:37:22,727 --> 00:37:24,270 Ah. 370 00:37:25,187 --> 00:37:27,273 - Thank you. - Thanks. 371 00:37:30,151 --> 00:37:33,279 Moderation in all things. 372 00:37:35,239 --> 00:37:37,992 -Especially moderation. -Moderation. 373 00:37:42,705 --> 00:37:44,415 Mm. 374 00:37:55,217 --> 00:37:58,054 There's something I'd like to talk to you about. 375 00:38:06,187 --> 00:38:10,232 Gerry, I'm tired of living the way we do. 376 00:38:10,274 --> 00:38:13,235 I keep... 377 00:38:13,277 --> 00:38:16,906 I keep f-feeling at a loose end, 378 00:38:16,948 --> 00:38:18,783 you know, at home. 379 00:38:18,824 --> 00:38:22,203 What with Michael gone, and-and it doesn't sound like 380 00:38:22,244 --> 00:38:24,497 there's going to be any more grandchildren. 381 00:38:25,873 --> 00:38:28,084 What's my role? 382 00:38:35,466 --> 00:38:39,637 What if we've cut the cloth of our lives all wrong? 383 00:38:42,139 --> 00:38:44,600 There's too... 384 00:38:44,642 --> 00:38:47,561 great a sense of drift. 385 00:38:51,232 --> 00:38:54,151 And I keep thinking... I... 386 00:38:56,570 --> 00:38:59,573 I keep thinking, Gerry, that I-I... 387 00:39:01,242 --> 00:39:03,285 I want to do something better. 388 00:39:03,327 --> 00:39:05,037 What do you mean, better? 389 00:39:05,079 --> 00:39:07,039 Better in what way? 390 00:39:08,416 --> 00:39:11,502 I want to live a more devout life. 391 00:39:12,336 --> 00:39:14,547 It's an unfashionable word nowadays, I know. 392 00:39:14,588 --> 00:39:16,298 Well, there's nothing wrong with you, is there? 393 00:39:16,340 --> 00:39:18,509 Not in any physical sense, no. 394 00:39:18,551 --> 00:39:20,511 No, no, yes, but hang on a minute, Stella. 395 00:39:20,553 --> 00:39:22,847 -Just hang on. No, it... -No, no, no, there's nothing 396 00:39:22,888 --> 00:39:23,973 wrong with me. 397 00:39:24,015 --> 00:39:26,517 Gerry, calm yourself. No. 398 00:39:28,602 --> 00:39:33,149 But I'd like to make an appointment. 399 00:39:33,190 --> 00:39:35,693 You know, the place we... we visited this morning. 400 00:39:35,735 --> 00:39:37,486 Just to speak to someone. 401 00:39:37,528 --> 00:39:40,823 I mean, the talk was that it's a good place 402 00:39:40,865 --> 00:39:44,994 for women like me who want to live a more religious life. 403 00:39:45,036 --> 00:39:48,664 A-A community of like-minded women 404 00:39:48,706 --> 00:39:52,043 interested in-in exploring the big questions. 405 00:39:52,084 --> 00:39:54,754 And there's somebody in there with all the answers, is there? 406 00:40:00,551 --> 00:40:02,720 These are questions that you have to answer 407 00:40:02,762 --> 00:40:04,597 for yourself, Gerry. 408 00:40:09,810 --> 00:40:12,563 We should order. I'm famished. 409 00:41:09,912 --> 00:41:11,914 Did you take your statins? 410 00:41:11,956 --> 00:41:13,374 Yeah. 411 00:42:41,086 --> 00:42:42,671 Thank you. 412 00:43:00,105 --> 00:43:02,483 Uh, are you, um... 413 00:43:04,276 --> 00:43:06,528 ...any... 414 00:43:06,570 --> 00:43:11,367 easier in your mind about yesterday? 415 00:43:20,793 --> 00:43:25,464 See, I'm trying to remember what was said. 416 00:43:35,516 --> 00:43:38,477 Unlucky with the weather, haven't we? 417 00:43:48,737 --> 00:43:51,448 -Stella. -Let's eat. We should eat. 418 00:44:22,313 --> 00:44:24,565 Oh, she's thought of everything. 419 00:47:01,096 --> 00:47:02,890 What is it, love? 420 00:47:05,601 --> 00:47:07,853 Do you remember Schindler's List? 421 00:47:08,896 --> 00:47:10,898 At the end? 422 00:47:10,939 --> 00:47:14,276 The pebbles on the gravestones, the little tokens? 423 00:47:14,318 --> 00:47:18,572 I noticed something similar at the end, on the wee shelf. 424 00:47:21,158 --> 00:47:24,620 I used to do that book with so many classes in school. 425 00:47:24,661 --> 00:47:27,498 And so I thought... 426 00:47:29,541 --> 00:47:32,002 I thought, "Why don't I leave something?" 427 00:47:32,836 --> 00:47:34,296 Yeah, and what's wrong with that? 428 00:47:34,338 --> 00:47:35,547 Oh, it's stupid. 429 00:47:35,589 --> 00:47:37,466 -Says who? -I've no right. 430 00:47:37,508 --> 00:47:40,427 Why? It's a perfectly legitimate gesture. 431 00:47:40,469 --> 00:47:42,054 No, it's shameful is what it is. 432 00:47:42,095 --> 00:47:44,681 -I'm not even Jewish. -Ah, come on, Stella. 433 00:47:44,723 --> 00:47:47,643 Don't take things so seriously. 434 00:47:47,684 --> 00:47:49,853 Gerry, if you can't take the Holocaust seriously... 435 00:47:49,895 --> 00:47:51,522 You know what I mean, right? 436 00:47:51,563 --> 00:47:53,857 You felt something, right? You took action. 437 00:47:53,899 --> 00:47:56,693 -You did a thoughtful thing. -No. No. 438 00:47:56,735 --> 00:48:00,322 I did a selfish thing to make myself feel better. 439 00:48:00,364 --> 00:48:02,241 There's a difference. 440 00:48:03,742 --> 00:48:07,996 Why is anything spiritual so impossible for you to grasp? 441 00:48:12,376 --> 00:48:14,211 Cake? 442 00:48:16,004 --> 00:48:17,589 Cake? 443 00:49:04,886 --> 00:49:06,263 How you doing? 444 00:49:06,305 --> 00:49:08,056 Pint of stout. Thanks. 445 00:49:08,098 --> 00:49:09,725 And a... 446 00:49:12,436 --> 00:49:14,896 ...large whiskey, no ice. 447 00:49:38,420 --> 00:49:41,256 Are you, uh, from Derry? 448 00:49:41,298 --> 00:49:42,966 -Donegal? -Derry. 449 00:49:43,008 --> 00:49:45,469 Ah. I studied there for a while. 450 00:49:45,510 --> 00:49:46,970 -Magee College. -Oh, yeah? 451 00:49:47,012 --> 00:49:49,765 Yeah. A bit before your time, obviously. 452 00:49:49,806 --> 00:49:51,266 Don't tell me. 453 00:49:51,308 --> 00:49:53,268 Accountant? 454 00:49:53,310 --> 00:49:55,437 Architect. 455 00:49:55,479 --> 00:49:56,647 Same again? 456 00:49:56,688 --> 00:49:58,607 ♪ To play old airs ♪ 457 00:49:58,649 --> 00:50:01,610 ♪ We said we could be friends... ♪ 458 00:50:01,652 --> 00:50:04,946 Graduated in the mid-'70s, 459 00:50:04,988 --> 00:50:08,325 and then as luck would have it, Liam McCormick took me on. 460 00:50:10,786 --> 00:50:14,164 He was a big architect in Belfast back then. 461 00:50:15,499 --> 00:50:21,463 And then they burnt the entire bloody place to the ground. 462 00:50:21,505 --> 00:50:23,298 Petrol bomb. 463 00:50:23,340 --> 00:50:25,425 No one was killed, thank God. 464 00:50:26,718 --> 00:50:30,305 Aye, but all that work, though, you know? 465 00:50:30,347 --> 00:50:33,767 Years and years of hard work up in smoke. 466 00:50:33,809 --> 00:50:36,311 Ireland's fight for fucking freedom. 467 00:50:36,353 --> 00:50:39,356 It wasn't long after that that we left. 468 00:50:39,398 --> 00:50:40,774 To? 469 00:50:40,816 --> 00:50:42,651 Glasgow. 470 00:50:42,693 --> 00:50:44,027 Miss it much? 471 00:50:45,362 --> 00:50:46,488 Work? 472 00:50:46,530 --> 00:50:48,240 Home. 473 00:50:52,452 --> 00:50:54,663 You know, um... 474 00:50:54,705 --> 00:50:59,793 we used to have these scale models. 475 00:51:03,004 --> 00:51:06,133 There was, uh, cars the size of Dinky Toys. 476 00:51:06,174 --> 00:51:11,012 Trees as small as those little cotton buds. 477 00:51:11,054 --> 00:51:12,556 You know? 478 00:51:12,597 --> 00:51:14,599 Tiny figurines. 479 00:51:14,641 --> 00:51:19,187 Mini churches, libraries, streets. 480 00:51:19,229 --> 00:51:22,065 Windows were made out of cellophane. 481 00:51:22,899 --> 00:51:25,068 They were minuscule. 482 00:51:33,994 --> 00:51:37,122 They were dis-architects, those fellas. 483 00:51:39,374 --> 00:51:44,004 The end of human decency, in the name of religion. 484 00:51:48,425 --> 00:51:50,010 I can still smell it. 485 00:51:51,928 --> 00:51:53,930 The black char. 486 00:52:05,567 --> 00:52:09,946 Yes, they certainly leveled my career, anyway. 487 00:52:11,114 --> 00:52:13,533 Strictly third division after that. 488 00:52:15,994 --> 00:52:18,914 -That was on a good day. -Hmm. 489 00:52:20,791 --> 00:52:24,961 Ah, would you look at the dome on that. 490 00:52:27,255 --> 00:52:30,509 Norman Foster, eat your heart out. 491 00:52:36,598 --> 00:52:39,267 ♪ Though now far away ♪ 492 00:52:39,309 --> 00:52:43,522 ♪ Still my thoughts fondly stray ♪ 493 00:52:43,563 --> 00:52:48,235 ♪ To the old rustic bridge by the mill... ♪ 494 00:52:48,276 --> 00:52:50,862 Taste... 495 00:52:50,904 --> 00:52:53,281 texture, temperature, perfect. 496 00:52:57,661 --> 00:53:00,288 Some people say the black stuff transforms you, 497 00:53:00,330 --> 00:53:02,415 you know, brings out the worst in you. 498 00:53:02,457 --> 00:53:04,042 Not me. 499 00:53:05,001 --> 00:53:07,337 I love people. 500 00:53:07,379 --> 00:53:09,756 I've always loved people. I'm a people person. 501 00:53:54,467 --> 00:53:55,719 Stella. 502 00:53:55,760 --> 00:53:58,179 Do you know what I'd like to do tonight? 503 00:53:58,221 --> 00:53:59,514 What? 504 00:53:59,556 --> 00:54:01,349 Something fun. 505 00:54:04,728 --> 00:54:07,772 The railwaymen would leave their burning lanterns 506 00:54:07,814 --> 00:54:09,691 outside the bordello doors. 507 00:54:09,733 --> 00:54:11,401 Red lanterns. 508 00:54:11,443 --> 00:54:14,237 - Red-light district. - Charming. 509 00:54:15,780 --> 00:54:17,407 Oh. 510 00:54:20,243 --> 00:54:22,871 I hesitate to say what turns me on, 511 00:54:22,913 --> 00:54:25,081 but this certainly isn't it. 512 00:54:25,123 --> 00:54:27,792 I just feel so sorry for them. 513 00:54:27,834 --> 00:54:29,085 Aye. 514 00:54:29,127 --> 00:54:30,754 The lighting is awful. 515 00:54:30,795 --> 00:54:31,838 I know. 516 00:54:31,880 --> 00:54:33,506 That's UV lighting. 517 00:54:33,548 --> 00:54:36,509 The same thing the butchers used to use to kill the flies. 518 00:54:37,677 --> 00:54:38,887 I know. 519 00:54:48,813 --> 00:54:51,066 An ant could piss more. 520 00:54:51,107 --> 00:54:54,069 Before you English had gin, we had jenever. 521 00:54:54,110 --> 00:54:55,236 I'm not English. 522 00:54:55,278 --> 00:54:57,280 With a beer, it's very good. 523 00:55:10,335 --> 00:55:12,003 Here we go. 524 00:55:12,045 --> 00:55:13,755 -There. -Oh. 525 00:55:13,797 --> 00:55:14,881 What are we drinking? 526 00:55:14,923 --> 00:55:16,341 -Jenever. -What? 527 00:55:16,383 --> 00:55:17,676 Jenever. 528 00:55:17,717 --> 00:55:20,595 First you drink the beer, then you drink the, uh... 529 00:55:20,637 --> 00:55:21,846 -Jenever? -Jenever. 530 00:55:21,888 --> 00:55:23,640 -Ha. -Cheers. 531 00:55:23,682 --> 00:55:25,183 Cheers. 532 00:55:36,778 --> 00:55:38,321 Ah. 533 00:55:42,826 --> 00:55:45,578 Holy Mary, Mother of God. 534 00:55:53,670 --> 00:55:55,505 Same again? 535 00:56:08,518 --> 00:56:11,354 What bliss to be away from all that noise. 536 00:56:11,396 --> 00:56:12,522 Aye. 537 00:56:17,652 --> 00:56:19,487 - Gerry. - Huh? 538 00:56:21,197 --> 00:56:23,199 Look. 539 00:56:28,621 --> 00:56:30,206 Come on. 540 00:56:56,608 --> 00:56:58,651 Oh, you're beautiful. 541 00:58:06,469 --> 00:58:08,721 Morning. 542 00:58:12,684 --> 00:58:14,936 What's that for? 543 00:58:14,978 --> 00:58:17,272 Body. 544 00:58:17,313 --> 00:58:19,190 Think it would do anything for my body? 545 00:58:21,359 --> 00:58:22,861 What's the occasion? 546 00:58:22,902 --> 00:58:25,905 Oh, thought I'd go back to the Begijnhof again. 547 00:58:25,947 --> 00:58:28,199 The vomiting miracle place? 548 00:58:29,659 --> 00:58:32,829 Uh, d-do you want me to go with you? 549 00:58:34,205 --> 00:58:36,249 No, thank you. Mm. 550 00:58:58,855 --> 00:59:00,398 Oh. 551 00:59:03,067 --> 00:59:04,527 Good morning. 552 00:59:04,569 --> 00:59:06,404 I wonder if you could help me. 553 00:59:09,532 --> 00:59:10,491 Oh. 554 00:59:10,533 --> 00:59:12,535 Thank you. 555 00:59:37,977 --> 00:59:39,520 Excuse me. 556 00:59:39,562 --> 00:59:42,565 Excuse me. Uh, uh, I have a plane to catch. 557 00:59:42,607 --> 00:59:43,983 -A flight. -Please sit. 558 00:59:44,025 --> 00:59:45,485 No, no. 559 00:59:45,526 --> 00:59:47,612 -Is there anyone else that I... -Hello again. 560 00:59:47,654 --> 00:59:49,614 Oh, hello. 561 00:59:49,656 --> 00:59:52,575 -Um... Sorry, just... -Oh, sorry. No, no, no. 562 01:00:00,333 --> 01:00:02,335 -Hi. Um... -Hi. 563 01:00:02,377 --> 01:00:05,421 I'm sorry. Hennie is very busy right now. 564 01:00:06,297 --> 01:00:09,425 But maybe I can help you with something? 565 01:00:10,426 --> 01:00:12,303 That would be lovely, yeah. 566 01:00:13,429 --> 01:00:15,223 My house is just down there. 567 01:00:15,265 --> 01:00:16,933 Right. 568 01:00:19,519 --> 01:00:21,562 The gardens are so beautifully kept. 569 01:00:21,604 --> 01:00:23,231 Yeah. 570 01:00:23,273 --> 01:00:24,899 In the summer, they're extraordinary. 571 01:00:24,941 --> 01:00:28,695 Especially in the evenings, with the night-scented stock. 572 01:00:28,736 --> 01:00:30,780 Oh. 573 01:00:30,822 --> 01:00:32,282 It's so quiet. 574 01:00:32,323 --> 01:00:34,659 It's a meter lower than the outside world. 575 01:00:34,701 --> 01:00:37,453 The noise goes over its head somehow. 576 01:00:39,247 --> 01:00:40,707 This is me here. 577 01:00:40,748 --> 01:00:42,292 Oh. 578 01:01:00,393 --> 01:01:02,937 Stairway to heaven. 579 01:01:02,979 --> 01:01:06,107 The only disadvantage is when you want a grand piano. 580 01:01:06,149 --> 01:01:08,443 Maybe stick to the violin. 581 01:01:10,862 --> 01:01:13,364 Oh, it's lovely. 582 01:01:14,365 --> 01:01:15,950 Minimalist. 583 01:01:15,992 --> 01:01:17,910 Sit yourself down. I'll make us some tea. 584 01:01:17,952 --> 01:01:19,662 Thank you. 585 01:01:43,770 --> 01:01:48,232 ♪ Lock up the streets and houses ♪ 586 01:01:48,274 --> 01:01:53,404 ♪ Because there's something in the air ♪ 587 01:01:53,446 --> 01:01:58,659 ♪ We've got to get together sooner or later ♪ 588 01:01:58,701 --> 01:02:03,164 ♪ Because the revolution's here ♪ 589 01:02:03,206 --> 01:02:06,501 ♪ And you know it's right ♪ 590 01:02:11,255 --> 01:02:14,384 ♪ And you know that it's right... ♪ 591 01:02:14,425 --> 01:02:16,260 So, what can I do for you, Stella? 592 01:02:16,302 --> 01:02:18,179 Well, um... 593 01:02:18,221 --> 01:02:20,014 Oh, do you need sugar? 594 01:02:20,056 --> 01:02:22,767 -Uh, no, thank you. -Oh. 595 01:02:22,809 --> 01:02:24,936 I suppose I just wanted to make an inquiry. 596 01:02:24,977 --> 01:02:29,232 I was in Amsterdam some 30-odd years ago. 597 01:02:29,273 --> 01:02:30,316 Mm-hmm? 598 01:02:30,358 --> 01:02:32,318 Teacher training conference. 599 01:02:32,360 --> 01:02:33,486 Are you a teacher, Stella? 600 01:02:33,528 --> 01:02:34,862 -I was. -Me, too. 601 01:02:34,904 --> 01:02:36,531 Oh. 602 01:02:36,572 --> 01:02:39,492 For years, I was an Irishwoman living in Scotland 603 01:02:39,534 --> 01:02:41,327 teaching English. 604 01:02:41,369 --> 01:02:42,787 An Irishwoman in the Netherlands 605 01:02:42,829 --> 01:02:45,039 teaching comparative religion and maths. 606 01:02:45,081 --> 01:02:47,750 Oh. Right. 607 01:02:47,792 --> 01:02:50,420 Well, that was when I first heard about it. 608 01:02:50,461 --> 01:02:52,839 You know, the setup here. 609 01:02:52,880 --> 01:02:53,923 Ah... 610 01:02:54,924 --> 01:03:00,555 But back then, uh, there was no urgency. 611 01:03:00,596 --> 01:03:02,557 What's the urgency now? 612 01:03:06,936 --> 01:03:10,940 I want to live a more valuable life, Kathy. 613 01:03:12,442 --> 01:03:15,069 To make a contribution. 614 01:03:15,111 --> 01:03:17,280 However small. 615 01:03:17,321 --> 01:03:20,241 You know, so... 616 01:03:20,283 --> 01:03:22,702 I suppose, really, 617 01:03:22,743 --> 01:03:27,707 I just wanted to find out about the life here, you know. 618 01:03:27,748 --> 01:03:31,752 How someone like me might go about applying 619 01:03:31,794 --> 01:03:33,421 to become part of this. 620 01:03:33,463 --> 01:03:35,089 This? 621 01:03:35,131 --> 01:03:37,425 The order. 622 01:03:37,467 --> 01:03:38,968 The sisterhood. 623 01:03:40,136 --> 01:03:42,513 Stella, I don't know where you've been getting 624 01:03:42,555 --> 01:03:45,600 your information from, but... 625 01:03:45,641 --> 01:03:48,352 there's no religious order now. 626 01:03:48,394 --> 01:03:50,062 Not anymore. 627 01:03:50,104 --> 01:03:53,065 There hasn't been a sister living here since 1971. 628 01:03:54,567 --> 01:03:55,943 What is there? 629 01:03:55,985 --> 01:03:58,988 Affordable living for anyone who can afford it. 630 01:04:04,660 --> 01:04:07,788 So the sisterhood is a figment of my imagination? 631 01:04:07,830 --> 01:04:10,875 No. The sisterhood is real. 632 01:04:11,709 --> 01:04:14,795 But the religious aspect... 633 01:04:14,837 --> 01:04:18,591 the religious aspect has all but disappeared. 634 01:04:19,842 --> 01:04:22,178 So I've got this all wrong. 635 01:04:23,221 --> 01:04:26,224 It's possible still for women to live here. 636 01:04:27,141 --> 01:04:29,310 The only criteria is that you must be prepared 637 01:04:29,352 --> 01:04:31,687 to live by yourself. 638 01:04:31,729 --> 01:04:35,191 Older than 30, younger than 65. 639 01:04:36,359 --> 01:04:38,152 That rules me out, then. 640 01:04:38,194 --> 01:04:40,154 Oh, no. 641 01:04:40,196 --> 01:04:41,822 I don't believe it. 642 01:04:43,366 --> 01:04:46,869 The other hitch is that I'm married. 643 01:04:48,454 --> 01:04:53,626 Though I'm not sure how much marriage we've got left in us. 644 01:05:12,728 --> 01:05:15,064 ♪ Lock up the streets... ♪ 645 01:05:15,106 --> 01:05:17,066 Can I ask you... 646 01:05:19,443 --> 01:05:21,237 Are-are you... 647 01:05:24,115 --> 01:05:26,033 A Catholic? 648 01:05:27,410 --> 01:05:29,370 Right. 649 01:05:29,412 --> 01:05:30,830 Do you still practice? 650 01:05:30,871 --> 01:05:35,001 You know, prayer and so forth? 651 01:05:46,971 --> 01:05:50,600 Kathy, I... I want to tell you something. 652 01:05:52,351 --> 01:05:55,813 It-it's something I've never really told anyone. 653 01:06:01,569 --> 01:06:04,780 I was involved in an accident. 654 01:06:04,822 --> 01:06:07,033 This was years ago. 655 01:06:08,826 --> 01:06:14,790 It was our first summer together as husband and wife. 656 01:06:16,250 --> 01:06:17,418 I was pregnant. 657 01:06:17,460 --> 01:06:21,005 I mean, very, very, heavily pregnant. 658 01:06:23,299 --> 01:06:25,801 It was unseasonably hot. 659 01:06:27,011 --> 01:06:30,014 Uh, too hot for tights, anyway. 660 01:06:34,143 --> 01:06:38,230 Somebody was ambushing somebody else. 661 01:06:40,274 --> 01:06:44,278 I'm not sure how long I'd been running for, 662 01:06:44,320 --> 01:06:47,698 but all of a sudden, running became falling, 663 01:06:47,740 --> 01:06:51,160 and falling became... 664 01:06:51,202 --> 01:06:53,037 not moving. 665 01:06:54,538 --> 01:06:56,415 Sprawled. 666 01:07:00,503 --> 01:07:02,630 At first, 667 01:07:02,672 --> 01:07:06,175 I worried that I'd wet myself. 668 01:07:07,510 --> 01:07:11,138 And then I-I thought, you know, it-it must be my-my waters. 669 01:07:11,180 --> 01:07:13,140 You know, my waters must have broken. 670 01:07:13,182 --> 01:07:15,726 Mm-hmm. 671 01:07:15,768 --> 01:07:18,854 But then, of course, I realized. 672 01:07:23,859 --> 01:07:26,028 So I said a prayer. 673 01:07:28,030 --> 01:07:31,200 As I lay there on the street not-not-not knowing 674 01:07:31,242 --> 01:07:34,245 one way or the other what was going to happen. 675 01:07:36,997 --> 01:07:40,209 I said the only prayer I could remember. 676 01:07:42,503 --> 01:07:45,673 As an act of contrition, and I-I knew that wasn't right. 677 01:07:45,715 --> 01:07:47,758 I knew that wasn't what I wanted. 678 01:07:47,800 --> 01:07:49,260 I mean, that's to save yourself. 679 01:07:49,301 --> 01:07:53,097 I knew that, and I wanted to save my baby. 680 01:07:54,807 --> 01:07:56,892 So I said... 681 01:08:01,647 --> 01:08:05,025 I said, "Lord... 682 01:08:05,067 --> 01:08:08,904 "spare the child inside my womb... 683 01:08:11,157 --> 01:08:15,494 ...and I will devote the rest of my life to you." 684 01:08:18,789 --> 01:08:21,959 "Lord, let my baby live, 685 01:08:22,001 --> 01:08:26,922 "and I will devote the rest of my life... 686 01:08:28,841 --> 01:08:30,801 ...to you." 687 01:08:39,268 --> 01:08:40,978 Now... 688 01:08:44,607 --> 01:08:46,901 ...either it was a miracle 689 01:08:46,942 --> 01:08:51,030 or, as Gerry would say, the wee one must have ducked, 690 01:08:51,071 --> 01:08:53,574 but the bullet passed right through me, 691 01:08:53,616 --> 01:08:55,993 in one side and out the other. 692 01:08:57,453 --> 01:08:59,038 The only damage was that 693 01:08:59,079 --> 01:09:01,916 I wouldn't be able to have any more children. 694 01:09:07,713 --> 01:09:11,383 But that vow... 695 01:09:11,425 --> 01:09:13,427 that pledge... 696 01:09:13,469 --> 01:09:16,096 Kathy, that bargain... 697 01:09:17,890 --> 01:09:20,184 ...there is a debt to be paid, 698 01:09:20,226 --> 01:09:24,855 and I've been looking for a way to pay it ever since. 699 01:09:30,277 --> 01:09:32,947 I've never breathed a word of this to-to anyone, 700 01:09:32,988 --> 01:09:34,907 not even to Gerry. 701 01:09:40,871 --> 01:09:43,457 But here I am... 702 01:09:44,917 --> 01:09:47,169 ...at my age, and... 703 01:09:52,508 --> 01:09:54,426 ...and I've failed. 704 01:09:59,014 --> 01:10:00,850 I'm a failure. 705 01:13:00,029 --> 01:13:03,157 You still haven't told me how your meeting went. 706 01:13:03,949 --> 01:13:05,659 No, I don't suppose I have. 707 01:13:05,701 --> 01:13:07,786 ...are ready for you to proceed 708 01:13:07,828 --> 01:13:10,122 to departure gate number 42. 709 01:13:21,341 --> 01:13:23,135 If you see any unattended luggage 710 01:13:23,177 --> 01:13:25,012 or anything suspicious, please contact 711 01:13:25,054 --> 01:13:26,972 a member of staff immediately. 712 01:14:00,881 --> 01:14:02,841 You'll do yourself damage. 713 01:14:04,301 --> 01:14:05,803 As if you would care. 714 01:14:09,098 --> 01:14:12,184 -Pardon? -You heard me. 715 01:14:12,226 --> 01:14:14,728 Oh, Jesus, give me peace. 716 01:14:53,976 --> 01:14:56,436 -Oh, for God's sake. -Oh. 717 01:15:28,844 --> 01:15:30,429 Here. 718 01:15:56,955 --> 01:15:58,957 Gerry, when we get home... 719 01:16:02,377 --> 01:16:04,546 I'd like to put the flat up for sale, and... 720 01:16:04,588 --> 01:16:07,382 and then I want to get a place of my own. 721 01:16:18,518 --> 01:16:21,271 You'd be better off waiting till summer. 722 01:16:22,481 --> 01:16:25,192 More chance of getting a better price. 723 01:16:25,234 --> 01:16:27,736 Gerry, you're not listening to me. 724 01:16:31,615 --> 01:16:35,994 I can't go on living the way we do. 725 01:16:38,747 --> 01:16:39,873 I won't. 726 01:16:45,254 --> 01:16:47,381 I mean, the drinking. 727 01:16:49,091 --> 01:16:51,051 If I mention it, I'm a nag. 728 01:16:51,093 --> 01:16:53,804 If I don't, then I'm complicit. 729 01:16:56,223 --> 01:16:58,600 Do you not think I don't see it? 730 01:17:00,102 --> 01:17:01,603 Smell it? 731 01:17:04,564 --> 01:17:07,234 Yes, I suppose you could go on doing it behind my back 732 01:17:07,276 --> 01:17:09,152 until you've no liver left. 733 01:17:12,281 --> 01:17:14,741 But it's not just the drinking. 734 01:17:14,783 --> 01:17:18,620 It-it's the deception that goes along with it. 735 01:17:20,372 --> 01:17:22,291 It's ruining you. 736 01:17:25,711 --> 01:17:27,296 Says you. 737 01:17:28,213 --> 01:17:31,633 Well, it's ruining me, that's for sure. 738 01:17:32,426 --> 01:17:35,971 I wouldn't know about that. 739 01:17:38,265 --> 01:17:40,934 You used to be so considerate. 740 01:17:43,645 --> 01:17:45,647 What's happened to you? 741 01:17:46,690 --> 01:17:49,609 These days, you're... you're nothing but appetite. 742 01:17:49,651 --> 01:17:51,653 Okay. Fine, then. I'll stop, okay? 743 01:17:51,695 --> 01:17:53,447 Right? No, I will. I'll quit. 744 01:17:53,488 --> 01:17:55,157 -Oh, Gerry. -No, look, I mean it. 745 01:17:55,198 --> 01:17:57,951 If you're serious about this, then I am, too. 746 01:17:57,993 --> 01:18:00,287 - I've heard it all before. - No, look. 747 01:18:00,329 --> 01:18:01,663 I-I can do it, okay? 748 01:18:01,705 --> 01:18:04,833 I... We can... I... I can change. 749 01:18:06,835 --> 01:18:09,755 I mean, I gave up the cigarettes, didn't I? 750 01:18:10,756 --> 01:18:13,884 You think I don't know how to change? 751 01:18:13,925 --> 01:18:15,802 Huh? 752 01:18:15,844 --> 01:18:20,015 You think I-I don't know what this stuff is doing to me? 753 01:18:20,057 --> 01:18:23,935 Sure, I hate myself as much as you do when I'm drinking. 754 01:18:23,977 --> 01:18:27,606 Well, then, why in God's name do you put yourself through it? 755 01:18:27,647 --> 01:18:32,027 Because I hate myself even more when I'm not. 756 01:18:47,918 --> 01:18:50,587 What about my faith? 757 01:18:50,629 --> 01:18:52,839 What about it? 758 01:18:52,881 --> 01:18:55,550 -We believe in different things. -So? 759 01:18:56,343 --> 01:18:58,595 I mean, we've always known that. 760 01:18:58,637 --> 01:19:01,014 But it's gotten so much worse, Gerry. 761 01:19:01,056 --> 01:19:03,892 I mean... the mockery. 762 01:19:03,934 --> 01:19:07,813 No, I have never mocked you, Stella. 763 01:19:07,854 --> 01:19:10,524 Oh, well, if that's not mockery, then I don't know what is. 764 01:19:10,565 --> 01:19:12,025 It's-it's a debate, right? 765 01:19:12,067 --> 01:19:14,694 We're... No, we're talking about debating the... 766 01:19:14,736 --> 01:19:18,615 the-the greatest deception that we've known 767 01:19:18,657 --> 01:19:20,867 -in our entire lives. -No. No. 768 01:19:20,909 --> 01:19:24,496 We are talking about... 769 01:19:26,665 --> 01:19:28,375 ...respect. 770 01:19:28,417 --> 01:19:29,543 Stella. 771 01:19:29,584 --> 01:19:33,713 The joking and the poking fun and... 772 01:19:33,755 --> 01:19:35,924 the derision and scorn. 773 01:19:35,966 --> 01:19:37,592 I mean, it-it... 774 01:19:39,136 --> 01:19:43,682 It's like you-you have no idea how much you hurt me and... 775 01:19:43,723 --> 01:19:45,725 Or maybe you do and you just don't care anymore. 776 01:19:45,767 --> 01:19:47,269 I'm not sure which is worse. 777 01:19:47,310 --> 01:19:50,939 Surely, Stella, then I have to be allowed my truth. 778 01:19:50,981 --> 01:19:52,107 The truth. 779 01:19:52,149 --> 01:19:53,567 You're doing it again. 780 01:19:53,608 --> 01:19:55,861 You're dismissing me. 781 01:20:03,994 --> 01:20:07,164 All I want is to feel close, you know? 782 01:20:07,205 --> 01:20:09,207 It's too much. 783 01:20:59,758 --> 01:21:01,676 Attention, all passengers 784 01:21:01,718 --> 01:21:05,347 for flight BM1463 to Glasgow... 785 01:21:08,850 --> 01:21:11,061 It's still chucking it down. 786 01:21:20,487 --> 01:21:22,614 Sweet, modom? 787 01:21:33,124 --> 01:21:34,876 Stella. 788 01:21:37,087 --> 01:21:38,755 Uh... 789 01:21:40,465 --> 01:21:43,677 My being with you is 790 01:21:43,718 --> 01:21:46,930 the most wonderful thing there is. 791 01:21:49,933 --> 01:21:51,851 I adore you. 792 01:21:53,061 --> 01:21:57,232 And when I think of the future, all I think about is you. 793 01:21:59,150 --> 01:22:01,820 And I wish I had been there with you in Belfast, 794 01:22:01,861 --> 01:22:04,030 and I know that I'll never be able to share 795 01:22:04,072 --> 01:22:06,825 in what happened to you that day. 796 01:22:09,953 --> 01:22:11,913 But, um... 797 01:22:15,667 --> 01:22:18,962 I-I-I won't ever... 798 01:22:19,004 --> 01:22:22,382 be able to accept your version of events, 799 01:22:22,424 --> 01:22:26,428 and I'll tell you why. 800 01:22:26,469 --> 01:22:29,556 Because... 801 01:22:29,598 --> 01:22:35,228 passing through this world beside you, 802 01:22:35,270 --> 01:22:38,773 that's the real miracle. 803 01:22:45,780 --> 01:22:47,907 The miracle is you. 804 01:23:13,058 --> 01:23:14,351 Uh... 805 01:23:54,265 --> 01:23:55,850 Look. 806 01:23:58,186 --> 01:23:59,854 Is that a plane? 807 01:24:17,872 --> 01:24:19,916 It's not moving. 808 01:24:24,045 --> 01:24:26,715 I think it's the morning star. 809 01:24:34,597 --> 01:24:36,933 Do you think we'll ever get away? 810 01:24:42,397 --> 01:24:45,024 We can only hope. 811 01:25:46,127 --> 01:25:49,964 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 812 01:25:50,006 --> 01:25:53,760 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 813 01:25:53,802 --> 01:25:57,597 ♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪ 814 01:25:57,639 --> 01:26:04,604 ♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪ 815 01:26:04,646 --> 01:26:08,483 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 816 01:26:08,525 --> 01:26:12,695 ♪ What will we know? ♪ 817 01:26:12,737 --> 01:26:16,199 ♪ Will we still be here ♪ 818 01:26:16,241 --> 01:26:22,205 ♪ Watching an in-flight movie show? ♪ 819 01:26:22,247 --> 01:26:26,000 ♪ I'll leave the sun behind me ♪ 820 01:26:26,042 --> 01:26:28,002 ♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪ 821 01:26:28,044 --> 01:26:32,841 ♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪ 822 01:26:32,882 --> 01:26:35,885 ♪ Seven miles below me ♪ 823 01:26:35,927 --> 01:26:37,887 ♪ I can see the world ♪ 824 01:26:37,929 --> 01:26:43,643 ♪ And it ain't so big at all ♪ 825 01:26:43,685 --> 01:26:48,731 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 826 01:26:48,773 --> 01:26:52,485 ♪ What will we see? ♪ 827 01:26:52,527 --> 01:26:56,197 ♪ Fields full of houses ♪ 828 01:26:56,239 --> 01:27:02,912 ♪ Endless rows of crowded streets ♪ 829 01:27:02,954 --> 01:27:06,666 ♪ I don't know where I'm going ♪ 830 01:27:06,708 --> 01:27:10,795 ♪ I don't want to see ♪ 831 01:27:10,837 --> 01:27:14,173 ♪ I feel the world below me ♪ 832 01:27:14,215 --> 01:27:17,010 -♪ Looking up ♪ -♪ Looking up, looking up ♪ 833 01:27:17,051 --> 01:27:22,181 ♪ Looking up at me ♪ 834 01:27:37,739 --> 01:27:40,867 ♪ Leave the sun behind me ♪ 835 01:27:40,909 --> 01:27:42,869 ♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪ 836 01:27:42,911 --> 01:27:46,372 ♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪ 837 01:27:46,414 --> 01:27:50,668 ♪ And I'm in perpetual motion ♪ 838 01:27:50,710 --> 01:27:52,587 ♪ And the world below ♪ 839 01:27:52,629 --> 01:27:57,759 ♪ Doesn't matter much to me ♪ 840 01:27:57,800 --> 01:28:03,139 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 841 01:28:03,181 --> 01:28:06,768 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 842 01:28:06,809 --> 01:28:10,396 ♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪ 843 01:28:10,438 --> 01:28:16,611 ♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪ 844 01:28:16,653 --> 01:28:21,950 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 845 01:28:25,286 --> 01:28:29,082 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 846 01:28:29,123 --> 01:28:32,961 ♪ Where will we be? ♪